Internal Sunshine

I sat down and thought today about what truly makes me happy. I thought about what set my soul on fire and how I could share that with everyone I came into contact with. I also equally began to think that it’s not about what sets my soul on fire, but why? I picked up my bible and read Mathew 5:14 “You are the light of the world–like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.”

It brought me to the realization that internal joy isn’t just happiness, it’s a permanent feeling of peace. Having internal sunshine brings you a certain type of calmness so even when you feel like everything around you is falling apart, you still have joy on the inside.

I also thought about the things that I want for my personal life. I thought about my mental state; what I truly wanted out of my life and I could only really think of internal emotions. Internal joy. Internal sunshine.




As a follower of Christ and still imperfect in many ways, I believe its important to understand how God speaks to you- because he can do this in many ways. I’ve come to realize that God speaks to me, personally through his word. There are a couple of things I’ve come to understand.


  1. We are the salt of the world – we are the seasoning, bringing the best out of people. Like salt, we are also a preservative – keeping his word true.
  2. We are the light of the world. The light is God-given and we, as Christians should keep our light on. I’ve noticed, that its easy to be swayed away from truth. But when you allow God to plant himself in your heart, there is nothing anyone can do or say to separate you from the love of Jesus Christ.

One light in a darkened room can make a difference. When there is light you find clarity, understanding and you dispel darkness. You cannot have darkness where there is light. “let your light so shine”. It’s okay to not “fit in” because you chose to carry the light of Jesus in you.

When you have light, you walk with confidence and assurance knowing that you have the best player on your team! As you anticipate what is ahead of you, understand who is with you now, and always.

There’s something about the love of Jesus that will make you want to do things for others without needing credibility. “In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” -Mathew 5:16.

Keeping your light on is a daily process. I believe you have to constantly pray for it and transform your mind every single day. Trust God and the process to be made better for you present, future and to be made better for your loved ones.











There are Benefits to your Suffering.

I’d like to talk about a subject that many people pretend is non-existent. We live in a society where people don’t want to suffer. But when you understand the journey, you understand that in order for you to get to the “prize”, you have to go down Suffer Street. We have to understand that our journey is not the final destination. In order to get to our blessing on the other side, we have to travel down this street.

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Sweet, Leola ☀️

Leola Foster was more than just a woman who loved her family. She was a symbol for unity and wisdom. Ms.Shine had a heart of gold. On summer days, I would sit on her front porch and listen to stories about her childhood while staring into those Alabama country hills. I would look into the hills and understand that these moments wouldn’t be forever. They are however, memories I will always hold on to in the depths of my heart. 


She was born August 1926 and passed away September 2, 2017. Today is her funeral service.

She bore 12 children in her lifetime and my grandfather was the eldest of them all. She was also a sharecropper who purchased 100 acres of land for her entire family to live on. My great-grandmother also had 50+ grand and great grand children, but she loved them all equally. She was witty, and always had a joke to tell. She would give her last for her family. 

When she stated she was ready to go home, she knew the place she would go to was better than her temporary earthly home. I know one day we will meet again. I can hear her voice echoing she loves me.

You wouldn’t believe the amount of love and unity this delicate soul brought to her family. I pray that I become at least a portion of her wisdom and humility. Born in 1926, she’s survived every form of oppression African-Americans still fight today and for that, I will be forever grateful to call her my great-grandmother. God has gained a faithful and kind-spirited angel. Until the day we meet again, Rest well Ms. Shine. “I love you, and always will.”  7-29-26 – 8-2-17 ❤

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