A pencil begins unsharpened, but only becomes sharpened when a writer desires to create. If the pencil is to break, what was previously created is not altered. The broken end is left and the creator has to decide to either leave it broken, or resharpen it. This is true with life. If you break, you still have the ability to resharpen and create. The benefit now is that your life will carry your experiences in beautiful grooves. True creators do not allow their obstacles to hinder them. They use them to grow, develop and become advanced.
Good morning readers 💗 It’s the beginning to a brand new month and I feel refreshed! I just wanted to drop by and send some encouraging words because we can never have too many them.
I’m a good woman. Don’t play or try to impose…
That I’m actually like them other chicks (well the hoes).
Don’t push me too far cause this shit will end,
And having you beg the Lord forgiveness for all types of sins.
I try not to disrespect when I’m disrespected.
My mouth could be vicious… but I’ll just regret it.
I’ll walk away with grace and leave him alone,
in his own darkness, but he’ll still pick up the phone:
To call, cry and apologize yet again,
but I’m not hearing it. I know exactly how this is gonna end.
Because men are children when they’re young,
but some stay stuck just being someone’s son.
They’ll never grow up just down on luck,
and stroke their ego with hoes that want to…
At the end of the day when it’s all done and said,
when he goes home & lays alone in his bed.
He’ll reflect on the past and trying to decide
why he made decisions with his dick and pride?
But intelligent women move on when their healed and ready,
old burdens are something new partners shouldn’t have to carry.
So the years roll on on and the facts remain,
that an unhealed man will always act the same.
Their insecure, broken, lie and try to make up
for all the damage when they know that they messed up.
A good woman forgives yet she still moves on.
She gets married, has children and dances to a brand new song.
One thing you can’t take back is that when you meet her,
she’ll love you unconditionally even become your teacher.
You’re blessed if you have capacity to reach, access, meet AND keep her.
Every relationship makes her love deeper and deeper.
Her new man hits the lottery, you just get cheaper.
Call him scratch paper because he isn’t the final paper
not even the version you save, edit or come back to later.
Blessing flow in abundance when you trust the man above.
He’s the man that deserves it all because of his agape love.
So in the face of difficulty I really don’t phase temporary problems,
‘cause I already prayed on my knees and asked the Lord to solve them.
I love God and my promise is to always prioritize his will over my own. It is an honor to obey, respect and choose to lean on my faith over my own understanding. I follow those two sentences by sharing that I am no longer engaged or in a relationship and have not been for a while now!
I can’t talk the talk without walking the walk so I choose to be a woman of faith; even when the road ahead is not clear.
The only thing I am clear about is that the Lord promised to be with me wherever I go and give me peace that surpasses understanding. The depths of my soul chooses him over and over again.
Through him, I also gain the rewards of increased wisdom, grace, emotional intelligence, self-respect, self-awareness and self-love.
So, it is well with my soul. It is well. 💗
The changes that I experienced through the last few months catapulted me into adulthood. I’m glad to be apart of the club.
This is a farewell to the former, more naive and inexperienced Dai and hello to the beautiful, relentless, powerful yet gentle woman who has emerged through life’s experiences.
This is also a hello to the blog again.
I’m back and you better believe I have a lot to say.
I remember riding through the dark county hills with all 4 windows down in a Chevy Silverado pickup truck one summer night.
I had just finished fishing in a private pond while wearing flip flops and my favorite leopard sun dress. This was fashioned with curls that were blowing wild in the air.
The music was blaring… I didn’t hear the song, but I’m not sure if the wind or my thoughts that were louder.
I stared at the moon and my mind began to wonder:
I wondered if anyone in the car thought things similar to me?
I wondered if I was different or unknowingly the same as everyone else?
If I was, why didn’t people talk about it?
The moon was the brightest light at night and the only thing in the world that appeared still.
I thought about love & how beautiful it was to look at the moon and know the person that you love saw the same one every night.
When I was younger, I was a hopeless romantic.
12 years later, I’m wiser but yet some things remain the same.
As we all venture through life, we will experience highs, lows and in-betweens. Most periods, we may feel the we are inadequate and incapable of achieving our deepest desires, healing and experiencing joy.
I’ve come to realize that social media is today’s main cause for feelings of inadequacy and it’s nothing but a facade. It’s a place where many people go to create the life that they wish they lived. It’s a place where what you have, and what you do can be created without actually being true.
Life is raw, unpredictable and honestly tough. Social media is not an authentic representation of everyday life. You will enter a deep and toxic matrix when you take the images online at face value. I’m here to tell you that not having it altogether is a reality and it should be embraced… because it’s real.
There will never be a time on this Earth where you will have all that you want and need. You will never reach perfection, so you must learn to rely on the only one that is perfect: God. I just want to share (after a long break) some of the things that I believe God are. Remember, you can place your peace in knowing that only God is perfect (and its this way purposely).
This pandemic has taught me that I have to constantly seek the Lord when feelings of inadequacy arise. As nervousness crept in today, I placed my mind on everything that God is and didn’t drop my pen until peace took ahold of my soul…
He is all that we cannot be, but because we chose to abide in all that he is, we are adequate. We are enough.
Adequacy is the state of being satisfactory or acceptable in all quality and quantity.May this hug your soul the way it has taken the grasp of mine. Thank you for reading.
I feel so good today and that feels damn good to say.
Today, I got to march to the beat of my own drum and do the small things I always tell myself that I should do. With my father passing away a little over 2 months ago, I’m proving to myself that I am still capable enough to beat the odds and strong enough to make my future mine.
What I learned in 2020: Grief is one hell of an emotion. (and wearing our masks really prevents the spread COVID)
A good year is not defined through everything that is given to you, but through your ability to make good out of any circumstance that is thrown your way. It is through your ability to overcome, prevail and choose to be the best version of you.
You definitely gain more through storms than you do through sunshine.
I have God to thank for it all.
Happy New Year 🤍
Wow… It’s been a while. I think about my blog a lot, but I honestly think that the most genuine and heart-felt posts that I make are the posts that are uploaded when I feel like it: when I feel like putting my thoughts into words….when I feel like being vulnerable… when I feel like it!
Never allow pressures of the world to make you feel like anything you love to do has to be a job or responsibility.
I originally created my blog for inspiration; and to dump all of my thoughts in one place lol. I have no control over who reads my blogs and how they feel afterwards but I pray that if my words ever find you, they also bless you and give you a deeper look into who I am, who I’m becoming and who I’ve always been deep down inside.
Hi Friend 🙂
2020 has been a hell of a ride. A global pandemic?! What the heck… I didn’t know what to expect going into the year, I just knew that life was changing. When you have that gut feeling, listen to it because WHEW.
In retrospect, I was right.
About 3 months ago, my father passed away. Wow? typing that [for the first time] is almost just as strange as trying to wrap my brain around the fact that I will never see my own dad again…
The last three months have been the most raw months of my entire life. I cried for about 30 days straight. I tried to focus on every positive. I doubted myself. I doubted my family. I questioned God. I didn’t understand why all of a sudden my world was flipped upside down. One day, I was sitting at work reading my daily devotion and the next day, I was picking out the color of my own father’s casket.
Everyday was a new emotion. Slowly, I’ve come across a gem that made me realize a lot about myself and through this realization, a lot about others. Before October 2020, I thought I knew a lot about life and a lot about myself, but God gave me the biggest reality check.
God is in control and will always be. I’ve learned what it means to be vulnerable, compassionate, strong, reliable, honest and how important it is to have a clean soul. Every single day I speak to God. I accept that he is the person in charge of life and death. Since he knew all that would happen this year, I learned to just depend on his will and accept the plan that HE has for me… and then make his plan for me my own plan! lol
The best gift to you and I is the Lord.
In 2020, I had to redefine strength. I had to experience a new level of pain. I had to learn how to confront my emotions. I faced growing pains.
2020 has turned me into a woman.
Life is such a beautiful and precious gift. I am so grateful for the support system that I have: my mother, grandparents, friends and my soul mate really touched me and made me realize that sometimes, we won’t be okay and that’s just a part of life.
The joy and peace that only God can give is why he is my absolute favorite and will always be. The Lord is a man of many names, but he is my everything.
May 2021 bless you.
…more than just a few months and the world is changing. I’m changing. Life is pushing forward. In the past few months, I’ve experienced loss, love and growth. People tell you “Happy Birthday” every year, but I think life would be a lot better if they dropped some wisdom on you for your special day. I realized a lot while I have been gone. I’ll share a few:
This is the first year of my life where I feel like I’m actually making an effort to read the Bible. I’m at peace with the past. This blog post alone was so healing. I’m in a good place.
Writing is a blessing and a gift! Luckly, I can pick up my blog whenever I choose… Whenever I need an extra dose of authentic mental healing.
Throughout the past few months, I’ve been living and trying to figure out life; all while maintaining my mental, spiritual and social life. This week, I hit a wall. Not sure if my hormones contributed to this a whole lot, but this week, I had it!