A pencil begins unsharpened, but only becomes sharpened when a writer desires to create. If the pencil is to break, what was previously created is not altered. The broken end is left and the creator has to decide to either leave it broken, or resharpen it. This is true with life. If you break, you still have the ability to resharpen and create. The benefit now is that your life will carry your experiences in beautiful grooves. True creators do not allow their obstacles to hinder them. They use them to grow, develop and become advanced.
I feel so good today and that feels damn good to say.
Today, I got to march to the beat of my own drum and do the small things I always tell myself that I should do. With my father passing away a little over 2 months ago, I’m proving to myself that I am still capable enough to beat the odds and strong enough to make my future mine.
What I learned in 2020: Grief is one hell of an emotion. (and wearing our masks really prevents the spread COVID)
A good year is not defined through everything that is given to you, but through your ability to make good out of any circumstance that is thrown your way. It is through your ability to overcome, prevail and choose to be the best version of you.
You definitely gain more through storms than you do through sunshine.
I have God to thank for it all.
Happy New Year 🤍
Wow… It’s been a while. I think about my blog a lot, but I honestly think that the most genuine and heart-felt posts that I make are the posts that are uploaded when I feel like it: when I feel like putting my thoughts into words….when I feel like being vulnerable… when I feel like it!
Never allow pressures of the world to make you feel like anything you love to do has to be a job or responsibility.
I originally created my blog for inspiration; and to dump all of my thoughts in one place lol. I have no control over who reads my blogs and how they feel afterwards but I pray that if my words ever find you, they also bless you and give you a deeper look into who I am, who I’m becoming and who I’ve always been deep down inside.
Hi Friend 🙂
2020 has been a hell of a ride. A global pandemic?! What the heck… I didn’t know what to expect going into the year, I just knew that life was changing. When you have that gut feeling, listen to it because WHEW.
In retrospect, I was right.
About 3 months ago, my father passed away. Wow? typing that [for the first time] is almost just as strange as trying to wrap my brain around the fact that I will never see my own dad again…
The last three months have been the most raw months of my entire life. I cried for about 30 days straight. I tried to focus on every positive. I doubted myself. I doubted my family. I questioned God. I didn’t understand why all of a sudden my world was flipped upside down. One day, I was sitting at work reading my daily devotion and the next day, I was picking out the color of my own father’s casket.
Everyday was a new emotion. Slowly, I’ve come across a gem that made me realize a lot about myself and through this realization, a lot about others. Before October 2020, I thought I knew a lot about life and a lot about myself, but God gave me the biggest reality check.
God is in control and will always be. I’ve learned what it means to be vulnerable, compassionate, strong, reliable, honest and how important it is to have a clean soul. Every single day I speak to God. I accept that he is the person in charge of life and death. Since he knew all that would happen this year, I learned to just depend on his will and accept the plan that HE has for me… and then make his plan for me my own plan! lol
The best gift to you and I is the Lord.
In 2020, I had to redefine strength. I had to experience a new level of pain. I had to learn how to confront my emotions. I faced growing pains.
2020 has turned me into a woman.
Life is such a beautiful and precious gift. I am so grateful for the support system that I have: my mother, grandparents, friends and my soul mate really touched me and made me realize that sometimes, we won’t be okay and that’s just a part of life.
The joy and peace that only God can give is why he is my absolute favorite and will always be. The Lord is a man of many names, but he is my everything.
May 2021 bless you.
Putting into words my love for you would only do a fragment of justice but I just wanted to interrupt your day and tell you how beautiful your soul is to me.
For almost 3 years now, I’ve experienced a love so beautiful.
From our very first date, I saw a light in you that I have never seen before.
You have been a precious gift from God to my soul.
You are the sweetest melody in my heart.
You make me comfortable being myself and I never have to hide myself from you.
As you walk through the troubled world, you carry a flame so strong and so bright.
When I lost my father 2 months ago, you held me with the strongest and most loving embrace.
You give me a safe space to weep.
You show me gentle compassion.
You are powerful.
You are a blessing.
You are a kind-hearted friend.
You are a loving son.
You are a strong brother.
You are a fierce lover.
You carry a lot of strength.
I love you for your vulnerability.
I love you for trusting me enough to show me your scars.
I love you for trusting me to always love and nourish your soul.
I thank God for our bond, our friendship and our love.
I pray to always love you the way you deserve to be loved.
I pray to always be the best version of myself.
I pray to always be your equal.
I pray that I always lift you when you’re down.
I pray to give you enough room to reach your wildest dreams.
I pray to be the best team mate and partner.
I admire you for staying so pure and so sweet in a wild and unpredictable world.
I thank God for taking care of us.
Thank you for holding me up when I was too weak to stand myself.
Thank you for your encouragement.
Thank you for your unconditional love.
I pray that when we grow old, and we are no longer on this side of the Earth, our souls meet again and dance just as we did on our first date.
I pray that we continue to be a power force and fight the good fight together.
I pray that you remember these words when you just need a little more encouragement.
I pray that you remember these words at your lowest and your highest.
I love you and never forget how needed, important and valued you are to me.
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…more than just a few months and the world is changing. I’m changing. Life is pushing forward. In the past few months, I’ve experienced loss, love and growth. People tell you “Happy Birthday” every year, but I think life would be a lot better if they dropped some wisdom on you for your special day. I realized a lot while I have been gone. I’ll share a few:
This is the first year of my life where I feel like I’m actually making an effort to read the Bible. I’m at peace with the past. This blog post alone was so healing. I’m in a good place.
Writing is a blessing and a gift! Luckly, I can pick up my blog whenever I choose… Whenever I need an extra dose of authentic mental healing.
Throughout the past few months, I’ve been living and trying to figure out life; all while maintaining my mental, spiritual and social life. This week, I hit a wall. Not sure if my hormones contributed to this a whole lot, but this week, I had it!
It’s been a while.
I started writing this blog post weeks ago, but it’s been super difficult to tell an “interesting story”. I’ve honestly been very happy and full of joy within the last few months. I think my most creative writing comes out through pain. Lately, I’ve been surviving. I’ve been living. I’ve been growing. I’ve been teaching mysef things about myself. I am at peace with myself, but I am also pushing myself towards reaching higher highs.
First and foremost, I do not know a lot of things. Strange right? lol The more I learn, the more I realize the things I have yet to learn. Sometimes, my blogs give off the impression that I think I am perfect, but I’m not; I am okay with not knowing it all.
Lately, I’ve been rewarding, disciplining, forgiving and most importantly, loving myself.
I am in a strange era in life where I’m trying to figure it all out for myself. It is the most beautiful and tough transition I have ever went through. I am making decisions that not only make myself happy, but my family as well. My focus is on today, tomorrow and the future. I am holding myself accountable for the decisoins I make; and making sure that the decisoins I make are in line with my aspirations. I am holding myself accountable for reaching my full potential and becoming the person that God has called me to be.
Sometimes, I look at growth as not enough. There are things that I want, but I have to pay special attention on remembering what I already have. I am more than just a goal-seeker. I am more than just a person on a journey. My health is important. So while I am acheiving my goals, I will also focus on appreciating right where I am.
In the next era of my life, everything must go.
My brothers and sisters, we have to make room for our happiness. I am emptying myself of depression, negativity and pain. I welcome our creator’s fruit into my spirit. I welcome peace. Connecting to him, I have hope and faith in a beautiful future.
I can do anything. You can do anything. WE can do anything that we set in our hearts to do!
Do not allow all of your hope and faith to be taken from you. Through life we pick up habits that we have to get rid of before moving into a new season in our life. Sometimes, God “moves” in order for us to move and follow him.
How hungry are you to enter into new dimensions in your life?
The person that God has called you to be is deep down inside of you.
I woke up.
I set a timer for 10 minutes.
I sat up and closed my eyes.
I inhaled through my nose and released each breath through my mouth.
I saw sunlight underneath my eyelids.
I heard birds chirping a beautiful song.
I felt the first spring breeze on my face.
I thanked God for another day.
I felt my body lighten.
As I finished, I heard the sound of a car engine roar.
The start of that car was also the start to my day.
Let it be marvelous.
What truly has value cannot be seen.
Maturity and strength are created through the intangible.
To be spiritually strengthened is to be able to endure whatever life may throw at you.
One day you can have it all and the next day, it could all be wiped away.
If everything you valued was wiped away, would you have enough on the inside to press forward? …Or would you sink?