Wow… It’s been a while. I think about my blog a lot, but I honestly think that the most genuine and heart-felt posts that I make are the posts that are uploaded when I feel like it: when I feel like putting my thoughts into words….when I feel like being vulnerable… when I feel like it!
Never allow pressures of the world to make you feel like anything you love to do has to be a job or responsibility.
I originally created my blog for inspiration; and to dump all of my thoughts in one place lol. I have no control over who reads my blogs and how they feel afterwards but I pray that if my words ever find you, they also bless you and give you a deeper look into who I am, who I’m becoming and who I’ve always been deep down inside.
Hi Friend 🙂
2020 has been a hell of a ride. A global pandemic?! What the heck… I didn’t know what to expect going into the year, I just knew that life was changing. When you have that gut feeling, listen to it because WHEW.
In retrospect, I was right.
About 3 months ago, my father passed away. Wow? typing that [for the first time] is almost just as strange as trying to wrap my brain around the fact that I will never see my own dad again…
The last three months have been the most raw months of my entire life. I cried for about 30 days straight. I tried to focus on every positive. I doubted myself. I doubted my family. I questioned God. I didn’t understand why all of a sudden my world was flipped upside down. One day, I was sitting at work reading my daily devotion and the next day, I was picking out the color of my own father’s casket.
Everyday was a new emotion. Slowly, I’ve come across a gem that made me realize a lot about myself and through this realization, a lot about others. Before October 2020, I thought I knew a lot about life and a lot about myself, but God gave me the biggest reality check.
God is in control and will always be. I’ve learned what it means to be vulnerable, compassionate, strong, reliable, honest and how important it is to have a clean soul. Every single day I speak to God. I accept that he is the person in charge of life and death. Since he knew all that would happen this year, I learned to just depend on his will and accept the plan that HE has for me… and then make his plan for me my own plan! lol
The best gift to you and I is the Lord.
In 2020, I had to redefine strength. I had to experience a new level of pain. I had to learn how to confront my emotions. I faced growing pains.
2020 has turned me into a woman.
Life is such a beautiful and precious gift. I am so grateful for the support system that I have: my mother, grandparents, friends and my soul mate really touched me and made me realize that sometimes, we won’t be okay and that’s just a part of life.
The joy and peace that only God can give is why he is my absolute favorite and will always be. The Lord is a man of many names, but he is my everything.
May 2021 bless you.