As I sit in a silent room alone, I began to think back to the person I was just 6 months ago. I’d just finished college, and I turned 21. My life had just began to start, and I was so utterly confused- yet excited. I celebrated- I partied and had the best nights of my life. I worked and developed saving tactics that made it easy for me to afford the things that I needed. Outsiders would think that I had it all. So did I.
It wasn’t until today as I sat in on my break that I began to into an introspective state. This isn’t something that took me by surprise, because I tend to analyze myself very often. Today, however I was very very surprised with myself and the way that I viewed myself was a little different that any other day.
Lately, I’ve become very in touch with my spiritual side. Throughout my life, I’ve always been raised in church but recently, my connections have been deeper, personal and more sincere. It wasn’t until my great-grandmother passed that I experience genuine faith. Putting your complete trust into someone whom you cannot see may sound very strange to the average person, but not to me.
I introspect to make sure that I’m focused on my mental health-and that I am being the best person that I can. I am extremely amazed and I feel very over-whelmed with the great things place in front of me. First off, I want to thank you for spending time out of your day and out of your life your life to understand the words of my heart.
I have became a leader, mentor a guide, a better friend, a harder worker and a spiritual being. I absolutely love myself. I have no one to credit but God. I’ve asked him to take me in as his vessel and allow me to carry a light. I plan to continue to grow- but it’s always good to look back and admire how far you’ve come in life. I know I’m not a finished project ( and quite frankly- I never will be) but I’m enjoying my journey and headed towards my destination.
I feel genuine happiness in my heart; joy. I feel emotions that as a teenager were dormant. I am growing into a young lady, a godly woman and an example to the younger generation. Thank you so much for being a silent listening ear. This is so sappy (I know-lol) but I really had to get this off of my chest 🙂 Thank you for walking along this journey called “life” with me.